Wow it's been ages since I updated this journal. I think I stopped updating because I became very busy with raiding with Delusion for a while. Panadoll geared up heaps, became one of Delusion's top healers & priest class leader, and cleared all 10 and 25 man content - with some difficulty, because Delusion was never particularly organised and had a lot of bads. Actually, I don't think Panadoll has actually gotten the 10 man Maly achievement yet. 0_0 (I did eventually work out my problems with third phase Maly btw.) She's pretty much as geared as she can be now & ready for Ulduar, almost full tier 7.5, with the exception of helm, and she looks like this:



Unfortunately, I had a lot of problems with Delusion, and I wasn't the only one. There was heaps of drama, mainly caused by the terrible way the guild was run and the actions of the guild leader and her boyfriend, and after finding out something particularly nasty I finally gquit. Damager - the mage and raid leader of Delusion I mentioned before in this journal and who I'm now in a relationship with <3 - left soon after, throwing the whole guild into turmoil because he was really keeping the whole thing together. Lots of other people also gquit. Damager and I applied to join Twisted Faith, a much more organised & progressed guild on our server. Damager was accepted into the guild almost immediately. It took me a little while longer, because although I was told my guild application was excellent it took a while for the heals leader to find time to talk to me. Finally he asked me to log on to their vent to have a chat. The first question I was asked was, "why disc?" Twisted Faith wasn't actually looking for disc priests, they were looking for holy priests, and they asked me if I'd be willing to respec. I think I managed to convince them to give me a chance to show them what I could do as disc, because I am extremely confident with my heals as disc - raiding with Delusion I was often second or third on heal metres despite my single target healing discness. They seemed to like me anyway and offered me a raiding spot with their guild, which I very happily accepted. Shortly therafter, I was invited to their 25man Naxx as a replacement (usually people in the guild have to sign up in advance for raids). I was very nervous because I wanted to impress them, and I don't think I did too badly. Their healers were much better than Delusion's healers though and although I kept up with them through most of the raid I started losing concentration a bit towards the end and dropped down to 5th overall on the heal metre. I was extremely happy though, to clear 25 Naxx in one night - Delusion only ever managed it over two nights. I also got my tier 7.5 chest out of the run. :)

Today I was logged onto an alt I've been levelling with Damager (and occasionally other friends' alts), a little 20-something mage called Dollfase, when Twisted Faith's raid leader whispered me to ask if I'd be interested in taking my shadowpriest to the guild's 25 Naxx alt run that night. I told him I'd really like to but Panacea is hardly geared for 10man Naxx. He said that he didn't really care about gear, he just wanted someone experienced who could MC on Instructor (which I had successfully done on Panadoll the night before). So I told him I'd give it a go. I think I was even more nervous than I was raiding with them on Panadoll, because Panacea's gear was so bad, not gemmed, not enchanted, no glyphs, and a really bad rotation that I'd been meaning to work on for ages. So I fixed everything I could, worked out a new rotation which I tested extensively on dummies & dueling Damager, and ended up going to the raid semi-confident but still nervous. I actually did far far better than I thought I would - I never actually realised how powerful my aoe (Mind Sear) is. I think I ended up 6th or 7th on dps overall. I really enjoyed myself too - dps is much less stressful than healing (though I will always love healing the best ^_^). Panacea also got three new awesome pieces of gear - Digested Silken Robes from Maexxna, Touch of Horror from Gothik, and Mantle of the Corrupted from Four Horsemen. Panacea now looks like this:



We stopped the run after the DK quarter, because it was 1am and the raid (being an alt run) had gone on for far too long already. We'll be picking it up again tomorrow.. should be fun ^_^ I'm liking gearing up again. :)

my most recent video.. finally managed to fraps this (I always lagged too much before). I really wish people wouldn't keep dying so I could get the achievement. ><

hmm, much better :P Still not great, but better. I went & did all of Panacea's training I'd been neglecting from 70, which helped a lot. :PP I also did some reading and have started trying to pick my upgrades better. My spell rotation I think is ok. I just need to gear up.

Panadoll meanwhile is doing awesome. :D I have almost full t7/7.5 now (except for helm) and my spellpower unbuffed is now over 2k, which I'm very pleased about. I actually recently replaced my t7 robe with Heigan's Putrid Vestments. I didn't actually roll on this robe when it dropped, but nobody else wanted it so it was looted to me for disenchanting. After the raid I had a proper look at it and was like 'o_o this is better than my t7' lol :P So I kept it :D I'm kinda glad to have some hit finally, mostly because there are a couple bosses in 25man Naxx where I need to MC.

Delusion has been attempting 25man Naxx this week. I think it was a good experiment, but I don't think we're quite ready for it. Arachnid went down ok, as did Plague (Heigan was fun as usual but there was a lot of fail there.. I tried to yell at people for not helping to cleanse but my mic decided to fuck up right at that moment -_-). Last night we got Patchwerk down and proceeded to Grobbulus, where several people were just too nub to figure out what they were supposed to do. People got angry and yelled (which was amusing to me at the time & helped me get over my own anger). This kind of fail should not be happening at this point - having to sit there while the fight is explained yet again is so frustratingly tedious. We have told people to read up on strats before they come to Naxx, but I get the feeling some of the dps just expect to be carried through. doesn't work that way! ><

Anyways, there was discussion afterwards with several core members on what to do about the bads. I think we decided in the end not to do anymore 25mans for a while, and instead try two 10man Naxx groups this week. We have enough heals, hopefully enough tanks, and I'm pretty sure we have enough non-retarded dps to fill two groups. I'm actually hoping to get Panacea into the second Naxx group if possible (she's 79 right now, planning to try to get her to 80 today).. obviously her dps will be terribad at first but at least I know all the fights.

Naxx tonight was a little bit fail. We didn't have our full regular core group - we had Xan (hunter, Death's aunty, my friend from Spirits of the Moon) with us, and a DK from the guild who was in Naxx for the first time. We got Arachnid down alright, but then did Construct and wiped on Grobbulus numerous times - many times when he was on under 5%, which was really annoying. I do not like that thing that DKs do which looks a lot like the poison clouds. >< We started a bit late also.. the raid was called at around 11:30pm. Not sure if we'll go back tomorrow, as Kitty has to work in the evening, so we might continue on Monday.

Panacea is level 77 now & has her cold weather flying. I'm enjoying questing in Zul'Drak at the moment, cos I'm up to quests that Panadoll never did. But, Panacea's dps is so crappy. -_- I did a couple of instances (Old K & DTK) with guildies, and my dps was always on the bottom of the metre - above heals but below the damn pally tank.. so embarrassing. -_____- I always topped metres doing heroics on Panacea at 70, so I am not used to this failness..

typical dps in 70 heroics ~


dps now :( (I only overtook that DK right at the end, because he went afk for a bit) ~


I blame crappy Northrend greens. Too much haste, not enough hit & crit. I replaced my FSW robe a while ago and I'm not quite sure if I should have.. maybe I should have kept it for the set bonus. The only reason I still have my shoulders and boots is because the gems make them better than any of the upgrades I've come across. I do want to get rid of them soon though so that I can drop tailoring and pick up herbalism (to go with her inscription) since you can't wear them if you don't have shadoweave tailoring. :-/

We didn't start Naxx tonight until around 9pm, but we still managed to get Arachnid, Construct and the first two bosses of Plague down by 12:30am. Our new core group is doing heaps better.. hardly any wipes, many bosses one-shot, including Gluth and Thaddius, which I'm particularly happy about. :) Several of the people in the raid got progressively drunk over the course of the raid (including myself) so vent was entertaining. :) It was pretty obvious by the time we got to Heigan though that people were feeling a bit worse for wear, and the raid was called, to continue tomorrow night. :)

I frapsed Patchwerk. I've been meaning to fraps more of our boss encounters, but I always forget to turn it on. I'm liking this video cos I kept the vent chatter in it, hopefully that will make it a bit more entertaining. :) Mostly you can hear Death and Damager talking (and Kez, Adam & Kitty [Annethi] a bit). ^_^ I wish I could figure out how to capture my own voice as well, though I only talked once in this fight, when Death asked for people to stop healing her (I told her it wasn't me). All you can hear is the "brp.. brp" noise of my push to talk button. :-/

It's been a pretty fun week. :) There were no raids scheduled til Sunday (today) so I spent a lot of time neglecting dailies completely and working on achievements instead. I got my For The Alliance! achievement and black war bear mount early in the week, in a pug raid over several hours, and also got Wrath of the Alliance at the same time. As I mentioned in my last post I got some PvP achievements on that night I got a bit drunk, and a couple days later I went into AV with Yuge and got Damage Control (we went to a secluded area, and he kept removing his gear - cutting his health by half - and I just healed the crap out of him. :P) I went into WSG after that cos I wanted to get the daily I'd picked up ages ago out of my quest log (just needed the mark of honor). I managed to not just get the mark but also Capture the Flag. Disc priests make good flag carriers!

Mostly though, I've been working on Loremaster. I've got up to about 570/730 Kalimdor quests done so far. But when I passed by the furbolgs in Felwood, I thought "hmm, maybe I'll take a break and work on Diplomat instead!" It took me three days to do it. I started on the furbolg rep, (started from about 3000 through Honored, as I'd already handed in a shitload of beads when I was working on my Frostsaber). That took me the first day. The second day I worked on Kurenai, which took roughly the same amount of time, even though I started from about 2000 through Revered (I had been working on their rep pre-Wrath). And on the third day I did Sporeggar, which was the quickest - I started from about 500 through Revered (while levelling I ground up their rep in order to get a wand from them). Now I have The Diplomat and 10 Exalted Reputations, plus a talbuk and a tiny sporebat. :D Afterwards I flew over to Netherstorm, bought some of the exotic pets, and got Plethora of Pets :DDD

Today I went to a pug 25-man Naxx run (started by Twelvians) which was pretty fail.. I was only there for downing Gluth, and we wiped on Thaddius many times before it was called. Afterwards I went to Delusion's 10-man Naxx. It started in the late afternoon, aiming to clear as much as possible. The run went really, really well. Delusion has been heroic farming all week (personally I only went to one heroic - I don't like them much! I did get an epic upgrade to my wand though :D) and everyone is a lot better. This time I was last of the three healers on the heal metre most of the time (the other two are resto druids) - which is how it should be imo! We don't quite have Naxx on "farm" status yet (except for, perhaps, the Arachnid quarter) but it was still a lot easier, with minimal wipes. We managed to clear Arachnid, Plague and Construct quarters by around 10:30pm. :D Tomorrow we're going back at 7:30 to work on Military, which a lot of the group has not seen before. As such it will probably take us a little longer, but I'm looking forward to it. We might even get up to Sapphi! ^_^

I've decided my favourite boss in Naxx is now Heigan. xD I am loving the Safety Dance, now that I know how to do it. Someone in the raid discovered a "safe area" bug thing though, so I found myself the only one actually doing the dance, while the rest of the raid hid in a corner. >< I've been wanting to fraps Heigan (not sure if I can, cos I lag horribly whenever I try to turn on fraps in that fight for some reason) and make a video putting it to Safety Dance (a song which has been stuck in my head badly lately) but if people are going to cheat and hide in the corner.. bah! lol. We didn't even get the Safety Dance achievement despite their cheating ways.. next time gadget. xD I tried to play Safety Dance on vent when we got there, but it didn't work well.. I just held my mic up to my headphones, and it didn't come through well apparently. :P



I decided to change Panadoll's hair. I don't change it often, as I don't really like the idea of changing her much from how I rolled her - she just wouldn't be Panadoll. :PP I probably won't ever change her facial markings. But yeh, I decided to go back to her original style and a lighter blue (her first colour change). I think it looks pretty cute. :3

guild lately has been.. interesting. I'm slightly nervous it's all going to fall apart, while staying hopeful that the few dedicated members can build it up. There are people not concentrating on strats leading to aggravating wipes, lots of people seeming to be more interested in doing their own thing than getting strong & dedicated raid groups going, I never seem to get into a raid group that has everyone familiar with the bosses (meaning strats have to be agonizingly explained over again & more inevitable wipes), as well as people telling me they wanna leave. At the same time I really love the people in the guild, vent while we raid is so hilarious, and.. er, I don't think I'm going to go into what else about the guild is making me happy & silly atm due to Delusion peoples reading this blog. >< (hai, btw.) Basically the people are great, the organisation leaves much to be desired. I'm not going to gquit, not unless it all falls apart entirely. But I am so nervous that more of the people I've grown attached to will leave. :(

We haven't cleared Naxx since the original core raiders left. Granted, we've only had two chances to fully clear it. It's still bugging me that we don't have enough people - geared enough people - to keep a dedicated group going. The wishy-washyness is bugging me. People turning up late, coming with broken gear, not reading up on strats, or coming without flasks, food, and reagents just isn't acceptable imo. I know lots of people can't raid every night - and I don't want to be a hardcore raider myself, I just wanna clear Naxx again. ;_;

I can now say that I am confident in my ability to survive all the way through Heigan. lol xD Yesterday we wiped on him many times, while everyone got used to the strat, but through all the attempts I kinda worked out my own method of running across the room avoiding the poison (to do with various marks on the floor which I'd grown familiar with, lol) and by our last few attempts I was always making it through alive. I am also very grateful that we had the awesome holy pally Leianna with us to help me dispel diseases. :)

We went on to do Loatheb but stopped it there. New Naxx tomorrow. :D More people gquit recently, but I'm not getting worked up about it. I think we have a good group of dedicated people in the guild now, all of whom are nice/funny (several times in Naxx I had to force myself to stop laughing in order to concentrate xD) and getting friendlier with each other. I feel a bit like I'm witnessing the beginnings of a really successful guild. :)

On Saturday I got into one of Delusion's Naxx raids (there were two groups who ran it in the end, both with a couple of PuGs I think). I have to admit, at first I was a little dubious that we could pull it off, especially when on our first boss encounter, Patchwerk, we wiped several times and couldn't get him down. But we went on to successfully clear the Arachnid Quarter, and things just got better from there. :) Death was in our group, and her dps is surprisingly much, much better - she's really improving a lot. All boss encounters had to be explained because it was most peoples' first time there, but everyone did an awesome job. After clearing Arachnid, the group reformed a bit, and we went on to clear the Construct Quarter up to Thaddius. Today we continued on from there, and although we spent the afternoon and the start of the evening wiping on him, eventually we managed to get him down. I think Thaddius might be my most hated of Naxx bosses, just because whenever there are people who haven't done the fight before, there are always so many wipes until people get used to the strat. >< Anyways after that we started on the Plague Quarter - managed to get the gargoyles and Noth down with just two healers (Noth is such easy healing, lol). We're going to pick it up tomorrow for Heigan etc. Man I hate Heigan. I've only managed to survive the Safety Dance all the way through once. Since I've been the main healer (I topped healing metres by a fair margin during this whole Naxx) I'm a little nervous. I really hope I don't die on it.

I've been a bit more vocal on vent during these raids, just because I'm a lot more confident now in my abilities and my knowledge of the boss strats, but I really hope I didn't come across as arrogant.. lots of wipes make me frustrated, because I've done these bosses before relatively easily. I also do not tolerate idiocy. Like when people called out during fights "heal me!" - dear lord I hate that so much (to be fair, it was PuGs, not guildies who did this). I think I need to be a bit more patient and remember that people aren't as geared and experienced with Naxx fights. It's kind of like progression all over again. I also hope I didn't make an idiot of myself by offering wrong information. Thaddius annoyed me though because I could see we weren't doing it in quite the same way as we successfully did it before, and I felt a little like my suggestions weren't really being taken into account (Damager was acting as raid leader and organising us - he's awesome, but yeh there were a couple of times where I felt like I was talking to a wall, lol). Anyways Thaddius went down in the end, so it's all good. :)

The only thing bugging me right now is Hannika's attitude towards the guild now since those core raiders left. He disappointed me when he told me "the few people who made this guild bearable have left" and then said he planned to just level an alt a bit and take a break from the game. I can understand where he's coming from a bit.. I mean this progression-all-over-again stuff is indeed a bit disheartening. But I really do think that this is the way for the guild to work towards 25-mans. If it was always just that group of core raiders doing 10-man Naxx, we'd never get to the point where we could do heroic Naxx and beyond. I'm kind of hoping he'll get over his qq and raid with us again soon. Cos he is such an awesome healer and I really like raiding with him. :( Maybe if I talk to him irl about it sometime.

Over Christmas I took a little break from WoW, which was kind of refreshing. I got Animal Crossing for my DS, which I've been playing a lot, but since it's designed to be played with other people who also have it, there's only so much I can do with it. It's fun & relaxing, anyways. :)

Tonight I planned to have a relaxing evening of just catching up on dailies and maybe completing some more Winter Veil achievements. Got my first Dalaran Cooking Award :D and did a bunch of other dailies, but I also went along to an impromtu guild Ob Sanctum, and later to an aquaintance's (hunter Djinn) 10-man VoA. In both I topped healing metres. :O That.. really shouldn't be happening with me as disc. Ideally I think disc priests should be last on healing metres (since - as I know I've said a billion times - disc focus is on damage prevention). But both runs went well regardless. My spellpower is a lot better these days.

Later on, around 10pm or so, Verd asked me if I wanted to come heal the Construct Quarter of 25-man Naxx. Leth had asked me earlier if I wanted to come to 25-man Naxx and I'd declined, due to wanting a relaxing night off. I joined Verd's group anyways (thinking it was just one quarter, how long could it take?), and realised it was the group Leth was in also. Apparently they're both in the same guild now, Gamers Council. It was a guild run with a few PuGs - one from Twelve, and another from Tsunami (top guild on our server) and a couple others from other high-end guilds.

I hopped on the Gamers Council vent and over the course of the run found out a bit about the type of people they are. They reminded me a bit of Twelve, but a bit more - if that is possible lol - immature. :P I only spoke on vent once, and that caused a bit of a commotion when they realised there was a girl in their raid. >< Anyways the run went... alright. Lots of people in the raid weren't even familiar with 10-man Naxx, so the boss strats all had to be explained in detail.. there were wipes. Many wipes. But we got up to Thaddius in the end. We did the worst on Thaddius - people just couldn't get their heads around the strat, or something, and after a few wipes the run was called because it was just too late at night (it was almost 2am by this time). They're picking it up again tomorrow - Thaddius, Sapphiron and KT. I'm hoping to get in for the remainder, if they don't start too early for me.

Leth and Verd were whispering me a lot during the run. Leth wants me to join Gamers Council, he reckons he can get me in no problem. It's.. really tempting. I mean, I really want to do 25-mans, and I have no idea when Delusion will start doing them (they won't even resume 10-mans til the new year). I'm not sure whether I wanna join this kind of guild environment though.. being the only girl in the guild is half errgh and half intriguing, lol >< But at the same time I don't wanna just up and leave Delusion, mostly because my brother and Death are in Delusion and I really would like to raid with them both (it's fun being Team Awesome Heals with Hannika especially ^_^). So.. I think I will put off any decisions til the new year when Delusion raiding resumes and I can find out where I might be heading with the guild in the future. And hopefully in the meantime I can get a few opportunities to do more 25-mans with Gamers Council. :)

This is my first attempt at capturing a boss kill with my shiny new Fraps :P It looks all squished cos I play on a widescreen monitor ^^;

It took us four hours. >< (mainly due to crappy druid heals we had at first - they were only just above the pally tank in heals o_O) But we finally got this guy down tonight!



Fight frapsed by boomkin Mayple. lol, I'm actually in a lot of this vid. xD I'm standing around in the middle of the circle at the start.. I was on main tank heals so for most of the rest of the video I'm at the left of the screen, standing just in front of the circle. Lols at sped-up penance.. fashfashfash! xD

(in case you can't tell, I'm standing 7th from the left - or technically 3rd from the right :P)



We've had a really good run of Naxx over the last couple of days, culminating in our downing of Sapphiron - an awesome effort on everyone's part, as the main tank Raltor d/c'd with Sapphi around just under 10%. o_o He didn't get the achievement, which sucked. But he did get the key that dropped when he came back on to distribute loot. We plan to finish off Kel'Thuzad tomorrow. :)

I got many good things! ^_^ Resurgent Phantom Bindings from Gothik, a chest from Four Horsemen which I should never have rolled for (it had hit rating, should have gone to the lock), Ring of Holy Cleansing from Heigan, Agonal Sash from Anub'Rekan (upgrade over the epic belt I got last time), and best loots of all: Infection Repulser from Grobbulus (this mace looks so cool ^_^), and my first piece of T7, Chestguard of the Lost Conqueror from Gluth - with which I bought Heroes' Robe of Faith :D Hm, I think I did pretty well xD

I'm doing a lot more raiding since I joined Delusion, which is good! Cos I really like raid healing. :) Tonight we went back to Naxx again. All we had left in there were the Four Horsemen, Sapphiron and Kel'Thuzad. The Four Horsemen is a difficult fight where everyone has to coordinate their respective jobs properly to avoid fail, and we wiped several times, but we finally got them down. :) Sapphiron was a different matter. Before we even got there I was extremely skeptical that we'd be able to do it, as Twelve had so much trouble with him when I ran with them (and Twelve people are obviously far better geared than Delusion people). It's just such a healing intensive fight, since everyone takes so much damage. At first I was assigned to heal Raltor, the main tank (and raid leader) with our best healer (pally Flannel) and holy priest Skadii on raid heals, but that failed.. I could keep Raltor up alright but I had problems avoiding all the frost damage and keeping him in range. I was switched to raid heals, with Flannel healing Raltor, which I didn't mind as I've done it before and I know what I have to do (even though it's fecking hard to raid heal as disc). We wiped many times, only getting Sapphi down to like 95% or so every time. Ultimately I think we didn't have enough frost resistance, and we didn't have good enough heals. We had to give up, and we're going to try again next week with everyone (except for Raltor) with at least one piece of frost resist gear. I can make three epic pieces of frost resist gear.. I think I'm going to make Glacial Robe and gem it up to make up for its lack of stats. And I might try to farm up Enchant Cloak - Superior Frost Resistance also. But really I think what will help us most is if my brother comes to heal on his resto druid with us. Hannika, Flannel, Iothea and Skadii are all the healers better geared than me in the guild atm, so I might get kicked out in favour of a combination of them. But maybe if I try to get my frost resist stuff together I'll stay in. I think the main thing I really have going for me is my constant raid attendance. All the other healers apart from Flannel, who's always there as well, seem to dip in and out.

Anyways. Looking forward to fresh Naxx on Wednesday. ^_^

So late last night I gquit Twelve. It felt weird. But ultimately I think it's the best decision. Probably long overdue. Twelve just made me stress out too much.

I joined Delusion. I am loving this guild, the people are really funny & friendly. :) I went to Ob Sanctum with them tonight, where I was assigned to heal the main tank - i.e., left outside the drake portals alone with the MT. Was a little worried about that at first, but I kept the tank up fine. :) We downed all three drakes before the main boss, who was really easy too. I didn't win any loot from Sartharion, but it was a fun fight. :)

Afterwards we reformed the raid slightly and went on to continue Naxx. We did Gothik the Harvester from the Military Quarter, Grand Widow Faerlina from the Arachnid Quarter, and Gluth and Thaddius from the Construct Quarter. From Grand Widow Faerlina I got Sash of Mortal Desire, and Cowl of Sheet Lightning from Thaddius. Finally, epix! :D

( Delusion dance off! )

I'm really enjoying raiding with Delusion. :) I've signed up for their next two Naxx raids. should be fun :D

I've decided to leave Twelve. :)

My brother wasn't able to log onto his resto druid Hannika tonight, so he asked me if I would sub in for him on his guild's finishing off of Naxx. I went along, slightly nervous at first, cos I think I am still undergeared for Naxx. But, omg. It was awesome. Delusion (my brother's guild) is so easygoing, and so much more friendly than Twelve. I explained that I was disc, they had no problems with this. In fact they actually took this into consideration and assigned me to heal the main tank. And I did really well. :O I had next to no mana problems, and I kept the tank up just fine. See what happens when I actually get to do what I'm supposed to do as disc! I think I did a lot better also because I felt like there was a lot less pressure than there is when I raid with Twelve... I felt good about myself as well because these people were pleased to have "someone from Twelve" in their raid. :P I wasn't being written off as noob like I usually am in Twelve. The raid leader was awesome too, explaining what he'd read about boss fights (it was the first time they'd done them) and assigning healers before each encounter, and when we wiped there was none of the annoyed bitching at people that goes on when Twelve raids wipe.

Basically... it was so different from my stressful experiences of raiding with Twelve, that I've decided to gquit and join Delusion. They are just progressing through 10-man Naxx at the moment, and they want me to be in their progression group - they were that happy with my performance. ^_^ Which means.. I will get to be there for all the guild firsts of downing bosses and such, which is a huge drawcard.. I would never get advanced enough to do that with Twelve. Admittedly Delusion doesn't have the numbers to do 25-mans at the moment, but they do want to work towards 25-mans in the future. I feel less rushed already! This decision is making me feel so much better about playing WoW.. I'll be able to finally enjoy the game properly I think. ^_^

Now the only difficult thing is deciding when to actually gquit Twelve. I'm going to try to stealth gquit, maybe in the early morning when less people are online. I don't want to cause any drama. >< I doubt Twelve will really care all that much that I'm leaving, but I'd still prefer it to be.. less public. :P

Panadoll went along with some guildies to Naxx tonight. We did ok up until our main healer dc'd and we proceeded to wipe numerous times on the first boss. I feel a little depressed about it, because when Fuzo asked me to heal the DK offtank by myself, I said I didn't think I could do it alone & Leo & Ipally were better healers than me - which they are, but that was a little beside the point. After that the raid broke up. I really do not like healing DK tanks, perhaps it's just because the ones I've encountered haven't quite been up to tanking. They lose hp so fast and even if I do nothing but spam greater heal on them I can't keep up. I don't have much haste at all anymore either, which makes things worse.

I also felt stupid when I suggested I go pick up the higher ranks of CoH that I'd neglected to get when I respecced. Fuzo said "don't tell me you're using CoH" which I wasn't - because I didn't have the higher ranks - and that for this boss all I should be using is greater heal. From what I've experienced of CoH thusfar (and I admit, I haven't had much experience with it at all) it seems to be a very useful thing to use when multiple targets are losing health at the same time. I understand that under normal circumstances CoH wouldn't be used in that fight, but that DK... both of them, the tank and offtank, were losing hp pretty much at the same time, and incredibly fast, and I feel like CoH wouldn't have been entirely out of place. I have a particular healing style which usually works well for me, and it doesn't involve many greater heals. I use lots of renews, PoM, and flash heal (where I used to downgrade greater heal). I don't usually use spells with long cast times, like greater heal, especially now since my haste is so crap. CoH fits in really well with my style. But it's all situational - there will be times of course when I'll spam greater heal on a tank taking a beating. My healing style's been working for me, so I feel like I know somewhat what I'm doing.. but I know that Fuzo has healed for a hell of a lot longer than me.. so my confidence has been crushed a bit, and a little worried that people in the guild won't want me to heal anymore, cos I did look a bit stupid.

I was desperate to heal a heroic after that, just to reassure myself that I'm not terribad, but Death and Xan had already enlisted me to heal normal Nexus. So I went & did that.. it was really easy & boring, and didn't restore any of my faith in myself. Hopefully I can find a group for a heroic or two tomorrow. I wish my brother hadn't respecced back to resto so I could do heroics with him. :(