So, Malygos.

I'm beginning to really hate this fight. Apart from the fact that I'm not crazy about killing an aspect (/lore nerd) phase three is really starting to annoy me. Phase one & two are fine, I'm in my element, my gear is awesome, I have no problem with heals. In phase three, I know exactly what I'm supposed to be doing (I haven't been healing, I'm just on dps) but I'm beginning to think my setup is just really bad for that phase. I use Bartender, and when the dragon abilites appear, the first is keybound to 1, but 2 is keybound to the third ability (a heal) and the rest aren't keybound at all. So I have to press 1 1 and then click what should be keybound to 2. On top of this I use my mouse to move, so I'm holding down left & right mouse buttons to move around, and pressing spacebar to fly upwards... basically it's a huge clusterfuck every time and it's frustrating me beyond belief. One minute I'm stacked with the group & everything's fine, next minute everyone's moved left and off my screen, Maly isn't even in view and I'm like "fuck fuck fuck which way do I move??" trying to coordinate all these mouse/key movements.. ugh. I guess I just need more practise but damn.. at the moment? It's my abosolute least favourite encounter in the game ever. :(

Anyone have any advice? I plan to do some more reading/video watching on phase 3 as well.

I've been really, really burnt out on WoW lately.. haven't really wanted to play that much. I've been getting a bit depressed about things.. I have problems with both of my toons' guilds.. and problems with the way I'm playing. Like I wish I wasn't so focused on trying to play awesomely and get awesome loots. I just end up feeling like crap when I don't play awesomely and don't get awesome loots. :P I really enjoy raiding but I often can't get past competitive feelings. I guess that's the main thing making me feel bad, cos I don't want to feel that way at all. I want to just be excited about seeing content I haven't seen before and reach my little personal goals. Not be comparing myself constantly to other players. :(

Anyways, I've been doing a fair bit of old world raiding with Twelve lately, on Panadoll. We've been to AQ40 (though we didn't down the final boss, and I wasn't online when they went back & did it ><), MC and ZG. I did really enjoy seeing all this stuff :) But I'm pretty crap at the 40-man raiding. Heals go where now? lol. ZG was the most fun I think, though I did really like AQ40 also. I've been wanting to see AQ for ages. I'm just annoyed I didn't get the achievement of completing it :(

I'd organised a SotM Kara for Monday night, but when I logged on Panacea I had all these mails from people cancelling. It ended up that only me, Yuge, Verd and Cretton were still keen to go. The two main people I'd made it on Monday for, Cy and Indi (guild leader) weren't able to go. Cy at least sent me a mail about it but there was no word from Indi at all. Slightly pissed off about that. Anyways I cancelled the Kara, since Yuge wanted to go off and do old world raids with Twelve anyway and Verd is adept at pugging such things. I wasn't into the idea of pugging Kara. Death has organised a ZA later this week, which should be interesting. :)

After talking about running a guild Kara for ages, and repeatedly asking people - in game, on the forums - if they were interested, and getting hardly any response, I finally decided to just make a Kara event on the calendar and invite people as they logged on and were interested. Immediately almost a full group was keen. This group, is made up of nothing but warriors, druids and priests... but since Kara's been nerfed, I think we can run with that.

Anyway, I changed the guild announcement to let people know that a Kara was being organised. What I did not realise was that our guild leader was interested in coming along. I've always been under the impression that Lilac wasn't particularly interested in endgame raiding - stemming back from around the time when I first joined the guild and I heard her say that she wasn't really looking forward to hitting 70. She just never really seemed that keen on anything other than soloing.. I never saw her asking for instance groups, and I had never, ever seen her express an interest in going to Kara. Now Lilac is currently level 68, and today she asked me if there were any minimum gear requirements to come along to Kara. I told her there weren't, but unfortunately all the spots for the raid had been filled bar one, which had been reserved for a geared healer. She told me ok, but then Cy (another officer) began whispering me & telling me that Lilac had been working really hard to level to 70 for Kara, and that she felt that she was being left out of guild events which wasn't fair since she is GL. I was like wut?? This was the first I'd heard of her even being interested in Kara. I apologised to Lilac in guild chat for not sending her an invite and confessed that I didn't know she wanted to come to Kara. She answered like she was pissed off and I was like O_O! I grovelled for a bit but slowly got angry. Why should I be made to feel like I've done something wrong when Lilac never gave me any indication previously that she was interested in coming to Kara?? Also Cy seemed pissed off that all the raid spots had been filled too (I didn't invite him, as he's still level 66) as he has been rushing to level up so he can come to Kara. Why should I be made to feel like crap because I invited guildies as they expressed interest? And Lilac always knew that I planned to organise a guild Kara - if she was interested in coming, she should have told me directly.

Lilac also told me that she could not set up Vent, because of her computer being in the middle of her house where her sons were around.. Personally I don't get this, because she could quite easily plug in some headphones and just listen to us on Vent, she wouldn't need to speak at all. And the detailed screenshots I have posted in the guild forums should make it extremely simple for even the most computer-illiterate person to set up Vent. So her Vent excuses aren't really valid at all. When I tried to explain to her the need for Vent in Kara (especially for first timers) she eventually said that she's not ready for Kara then, and she will wait until she can get her computer away from her boys. Hunh??? I really don't get her aversion to wearing headphones in front of them?

ugh, stupid guild drama is stupid.

I've been running so many instances lately.. it's pretty much all I've been doing, as well as occasionally taking Panacea to Nagrand to grind Kurenai rep & look out for Halaa raids (of which there aren't many, irritatingly). Panadoll has healed a few instances for guildies, but I've mostly been doing instances on Panacea. DPSing is a bit less stressful than healing, and I think I'm quite good at it (often topping damage metres ahead of locks and mages) but it's been fun to heal on Panadoll once in a while. :)

Today I went to MgT (normal) for the first time, on Panadoll. I was there healing for a guildie, Verdiline, a druid (and the only real tank in our guild) who had been trying to get through the instance all day, but had all sorts of unfortunate troubles with groups falling apart, the instance resetting, constant wipes, etc etc. It was quite easy at first, as we had a well geared tank (Verd was DPSing) from one of our server's high-end guilds, Over Nine Thousand. Unfortunately though, this tank had to leave after the second boss. We managed to get in a pally tank who wasn't very well geared at all (having just hit 70 I think) and the healing got a lot harder, mainly because the group couldn't seem to keep aggro off me. I died several times and had to go repair, but we chugged through up to Priestess Delrissa. This is where we hit real problems. >< The pally tank decided to log over to their better geared resto druid, as they said tanks were useless on this boss. I brought in Panacea to lend more DPS, but we still wiped, and the group fell apart. Man I knew MgT was hard, but this was ridiculous hard. :(

Later on, Yuge said he would tank heroic slabs (the daily) for Panacea, and my brother (Hannika) said he would respec from moonkin to resto and come along too. But we were only grouped for a short time before Yuge ditched us for Twelve's Mount Hyjal, which he had warned me beforehand he might do, but Hannika had already respecced, and after our group disbanded he had to respec back to moonkin so he could farm, wasting 100g. :( He was pretty pissed off. I got into a group for normal slabs (I have run slabs so many damn times, lol) and afterwards my guildie friend Deatharra (arms warrior) and her holy priest husband Pelor wanted me to come dps normal Steamvault. Hannika agreed to come along as well, so we spent a while looking for a tank. I noticed Yuge wasn't at Hyjal anymore and asked if he'd come tank. Apparently there was some drama with a troll who got their raid leader banned for some Vent thing, and the Hyjal run had fallen apart. So he agreed to come tank SV. I noticed during the run that Hannika wasn't in a very good mood, and Yuge asked me if Hannika was pissed off at him. I spent the SV run in three simultaneous whispered conversations with Yuge, Hannika, and Deatharra (who has grown nervous of Yuge, because he has tanked a lot of instances for her and she knows he doesn't like running normal instances much) and found out that yes, Hannika was still pretty pissed off with Yuge, telling me he was just tired of waiting around for Yuge and he thought it was pretty scummy to leave our hslabs group for Hyjal, when Hyjal will be obsolete so soon. Meanwhile party chat was pretty much silent, except for a few terse directions and passive aggressive remarks... ugh, dramariffic. I think Death's husband Pelor is getting sick of healing instances for Death too.. he is a little better geared than Panadoll, and prefers raiding with his guild I think.

I wish Spirits of the Moon had more 70s who wanted to run instances, rather than PvP, cos otherwise we'll never get enough people geared for Kara before the expansion. :( At the moment, the most likely candidates for guild Kara are Panacea (geared just well enough for Kara I think), Iamleo (enthusiastic hunter who loves instancing and could just about do Kara), Verdiline (druid tank, Kara-capable), Helpfulness (other shadowpriest, geared just about as well as Panacea, but in more PvP gear), Avidmaul (recent addition to the guild, a Kara-geared resto druid), and Deatharra who is still only level 68, but is trying to get to 70 as fast as possible, and who plans to respec prot for the guild. She will need to get geared first of course, but we've been running her through level 70 instances in preparation, and I think she already has some good tanking stuff. Obviously we'd also have to PuG a few people, but maybe Pelor, Yuge and Hannika might come along for the badges (and Panadoll could come heal if it comes to that, but I really wanna get Panacea through)... anyways, chances of guild Kara before expansion are improving but still iffy at the moment.

So they're getting rid of starshards. /cry ;____;

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I haven't been enjoying playing WoW lately.

It's a number of things, but two things mostly. First - I love healing and being a holy priest, but at the same time I find it incredibly frustrating trying to find groups for things. And I really hate being so squishy. I pretty much soloed to 70 and I keep thinking back to when I was shadow and how I just pwned everything, stuff 3 or 4 levels above me, and how invincible I felt. Now it's a struggle just to do dailies sometimes. So, just respec shadow right, problem solved? It's not that simple... for starters, I truly do enjoy healing, when I get a chance to do it. Healing an instance is one of my very favourite parts of the game. And raid healing is so fast paced and exciting.. I really enjoy it too (what limited experience I've had of it). Besides this, my tailoring is already primal mooncloth specced. If I went shadow I would want the frozen shadoweave set, and as far as I can see you can't change your tailoring spec. Not to mention the amount of time I've spent grinding the mats for the primal mooncloth set. Then there's all the gear I've already managed to get for Panadoll as a holy priest.. it's been such an effort to get her just to the point she is now and I really don't want to give all that up. So yes.. there are a whole heap of reasons why I don't want to respec.

The second reason I'm not enjoying myself.. well I think it's the guild I'm in. I've known for ages that I don't really fit in with them personality-wise. I hardly ever spoke in guild chat when I was levelling, and I still hardly say anything.. it's because they're not a particularly welcoming or friendly guild. I mean people in the guild are friends, but it's a bit like... get yourself geared or gtfo, you know? And unless you've played since launch and have a character geared for Sunwell you're kinda, less of a player than those who do.. this is the vibe I get from them, anyways. So, just leave the guild right, problem solved? Not really. I like being in the same guild as my partner (Yuge) and my friend (Lutzi), I am grateful to the guild for taking me through Kara and I'm also hopeful that I'll get to go again - and I know this is the best/easiest way for me to get geared. If I left the guild I would be lost and I'd have even less opportunity than I do now to get better gear.

I think if I'm going to play WoW, I should be enjoying myself, not stressing about people making snarky comments about my gear, not mind-numbingly grinding primals or doing dailies while waiting desperately for a chance to do an instance, not getting frustrated at my extreme squishiness. So I've rerolled. :P



I have made another priest, a draenei priest, called Panacea. She's on the same server. I plan to play her very differently from Panadoll. For starters, I'm not going to let Yuge run me through instances or help me with anything. I want to learn to heal better, so I'm going to heal all the instances I can while levelling. Secondly - Panacea is going to be shadow while levelling, and shadow at 70. So if I get a chance to dps instances while levelling I'm going to do that too. Thirdly - I'm using keybindings and Healbot from the beginning, not just to play Panacea better but to improve Panadoll's game as well. Panacea is currently level 10 (just put my first talent point into Spirit Tap :P) and she's been an absolute joy to play so far. Because I know how to play a priest very well everything is so super quick and easy, and soloing is so much fun. I can't wait til I get a few more points into shadow. ^_^

Here's a few screenshots from Panacea's day today~ ( under here )

So I'm feeling a bit happier now. And looking forward to having both a 70 holy priest and 70 shadow priest. :) I'm also looking forward to journaling Panacea's progress, and becoming a better priest all round. :)

I was nervous about telling Yuge and my brother that I'm levelling an alt. I don't think Yuge minds as much as I thought he would but my brother, predictably, thinks I'm stupid to reroll. He thinks I should respec Panadoll and get new gear. Kind of hard to get my point of view across to him through whispers.

I managed to get into another Kara this afternoon. There is one other girl in my guild (that I know of, and besides Lutzi's wife who has a low level priest called Leokadia) whose main is a priest called Konstantine. She's very well respected in the guild and as far as I know is the best priest besides Lutzi. She has a druid who just dinged 70 (Bahedrin), so she organised a Kara run. As soon as I saw Lutzi was in, I was keen to go (although I think I have gotten much better with my heals, I know he can easily hold the entire raid) so I convinced Yuge to go (his tankage is always wanted :P). He was handed raid leader, and I kinda snuck into the raid.

I'm painfully aware that my gear is still pitiful and not really good enough for Kara at all. So it didn't help when we were standing around at the beginning and someone made a snide remark about my gear. Looting was different at first than the first time I'd been to Kara (when Lutzi allocated everything) so I think I made a minor faux pas with greeding some purple gloves that I thought would be better than my blue ones, but weren't apparently. Later on Lutzi allocated loot to my relief (though nothing dropped that I wanted anyway).. I am such a noob with trying to figure out if things are better than what I already have. I normally try on different items and compare how they affect my stats. :P

At Moroes, I thought I did reasonably well with keeping my allocated target shackled, but we wiped on our first attempt (I think it was due to failure to keep aggro off Lutzi). There were still remarks made about undergeared noobs though and I felt crappy. But I thought I did well for what was literally my second ever attempt at shackling. :(

On Maiden I died early on, was ressed by a pally, died soon afterwards, was ressed by the druid Bahedrin, died immediately. Yeah. Yay for Spirit of Redemption form. :P I don't really understand that fight. I should probably read up on it.

A bit further on I think somebody pulled too quickly and Lutzi died, but I healed furiously and we mostly stayed alive. Probably others were helping to heal also, but I thought I did alright under pressure.

Shortly after this point, both Yuge and I had to go afk. And then we had to leave the raid.. Lutzi called it because everyone was doing Mount Hyjal soon anyway. By the time I got back to my computer I was logged out. I felt kinda bad for just kinda abandoning without saying anything to anyone. :-/

Anyways.. so this Kara run wasn't quite so successful. I got rep and a few badges out of it though I guess. :) I'm just a little depressed because I feel so useless compared to the rest of my guild. It's different when I'm running an instance with Yuge, I actually feel like I am doing something important for the group. We did the Mechanar today (my first time there) and I really enjoyed it. I got my Arcatraz key fragment out of it too. :) Botanica next..